About 2 years ago I got put in to have Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. It is a way to train your brain basically. I desperately needed it then and it did help me a lot! I remember first hearing that I was going to have it. I was absolutely terrified as I had never had proper counseling before and this seemed extremely intense. However, I should not have been scared at all. My councilor was really lovely, it affected me really positively and I learned so much…
I learned how to be more rational about things and not assume the worst from every situation. I got given a load of sheets of paper with a template. This template included writing about something that has happened, a worst-case scenario and a more reasonable explanation. I used this for every single situation that made me anxious and depressed until I didn’t have to use it anymore. I still have these in a folder just in case I need them again.
I learned that it is okay to talk about your feelings. It is okay to make people aware of how you are feeling and get things off your chest once in a while. You will definitely feel much better in the end. It will feel like a giant weight has been lifted from your shoulders. In my case, it felt like I had been carrying around many many weights for years. The first couple of sessions are rather daunting and it’s difficult to talk about some things. Although once you get used to it, and you start trusting the counselor more… it gets so much easier. At first, I would barely talk to her. By my last session, she wouldn’t even have to ask me a question for me to talk. My confidence certainly increased throughout the experience. I never even realized how much I needed to talk about.
The main point of this post is to let everyone know that Cognitive Behavioural Therapy is nothing to worry about. It isn’t scary at all. So, if you have been considered getting it then you should definitely go for it. Try it out. Yes, it can’t work for everyone but you won’t know until you try. It also didn’t “cure” me completely. I still need to take anti-anxiety and depression tablets to give me that extra mental boost (I shall talk about this more in a post coming soon). But thanks to CBT, my mind doesn’t take me to the absolute worst place anymore. My world is no longer engulfed in darkness when a minor inconvenience occurs. I am extremely grateful.
I’m sure you will be too if it works even slightly or a lot. There are many ways to get help. Many ways to feel better. This took me a long time to realize and I wish I had sooner.
You Are Not Alone.
ColourfulHope (Ruth) xoxo